Now is the time.

So, this is my very first "blog" entry. I have always been pretty anti- "posting all your thoughts" on some website. But I really just want to journal my thoughts and feelings about what this new life at college is like for me. Don't ever expect me to get too personal, because I like to remain a bit of a mystery. But as far as the outer image, I am not afraid to show.

Today in chapel I was very attentive, which is not too typical of me. This week at Baylor is missions week. No matter how much I try and fight it, God has had a persistent calling on my life to do mission work. I've been pretty intimidated by such an intense calling on my life, but I suppose if He will bring me to it, he will undoubtedly bring me through it!
Tonight I attended my FCC service meeting. I really think I am going to enjoy serving the youth of Waco... my heart is in it more than it is in a lot of other things. I am worried about school and how tough biology is. I hate to admit it, but my teachers were all right! It is really hard here at Baylor, but I honestly wouldn't trade it for the world. I love it here... I know that God placed me here for a specific purpose.

So now some thoughts on people... I for some reason get a lot of thrill out of breaking someone... taking them out of their usual comfort zones and making them think outside their "box". But, wow it can be a difficult task sometimes. However, I believe they use extreme confidence to cover the lack there of.. These people come off as arrogant to almost everyone, but somehow I think I know the truth... that they are afraid of something greater than themselves. Well I am just rambling now, but I will continue to pursue relationship building with those who believe they can't have intimate relations with anyone. So HA.

Okay well I must return to my studies.... I hope this thing works and people actually read it, or if not, its just here for my own good, which I am okay with.

Have a good night!

"And He said... Ask and I'll give the nations to you. Oh Lord, that's the cry of my heart." ~Pursue the Lord beyond the acceptance of what He has done, but for what He has yet to do.~