Sooo Late!!!

Okay, so I definitely cannot sleep. My mind is just keeps going, and going, and going. You name it, and I am thinking about it when it is time to go to sleep.

So this week has been very interesting. It seems the topic of why girls come to Baylor has been tossed up a lot in conversation this week, not only with my roommates, but suprisingly in my classes as well. So it is a very known fact that many girls come to a Baptist college with hopes to find their future spouse, and for that reason only. So I think to myself, should I be on the look out as well?? Haha, hardly. It just blows my mind how some girls think. Doesn't an education even matter to them? I just don't know about all this. lol. I am definitely very far from caring about marriage, goodness.

Today I was really thinking after I heard a man say that we major in belief and minor in behavior. Ya know, this is so true. I can stand my ground and preach my morals, but when it comes down to it, how strong am I really? The person I want to be, and know I am called to be, is often times no where near the person I actually am. I guess it will just be my every day challenge to strive to be more authentic, and me:)

My heart was broken a tiny bit this evening when the Cardinals lost. It makes me so homesick watching baseball... My family loves to watch it and I've grown up always loving the game... so watching the game made me miss them a lot. Especially my grandma. If there's one thing I hate about being so far away, it is being away from her. I hate it that I didn't spend more time with her... I love that woman!!

Okay so this was quite possibly a pointless blog... but aren't they all? So much time wasted putting my thoughts down, and honestly, who cares? And if anyone does, then wow, mind your own business. haha...

Night Night :)



* My thought for the day....*
~Often times we are not afraid of what we cannot do, but perhaps it the power that we hold within us, and knowing that we are capable of achieving great things. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.~

A Gloomy Day...

So today the sun didn't appear once. And campus smelled horribly. I do not really know what that was all about. But all in all it was a good day...

Tonight I watched a documentary called "Beyond the Gates of Splendor," and wow, it was really inspiring to watch. It was about these 5 missionaries that were speared to death, and their families still remain as missionaries for the tribe that murdered their husbands, fathers, and grandfathers. It was really amazing to watch such an un-reached society have God brought to them. One woman stated that Jesus was speared and did not spear others in return, but instead died so that they could live. This was incredible to me because this woman could see God's glory in all her suffering. No matter what, in the good and in the bad times, God has His best intentions for us all. This documentary just inspired me to an even greater length to go when called. I was once scared to come to Baylor because I knew that God would only press harder on my heart to serve him through missions, and it is true. But I cannot run from the calling on my life.

Okay so today was good... really good. I love it when I just feel like I've made the most out of my day (even if I took a 3 hour nap!) Okay, well I can't wait for the weekend!! Just a few more days... :) Ahh.. I love it here!

Have a good one.

~There is no greater love than a man who lays down his life for a friend.~

Now is the time.

So, this is my very first "blog" entry. I have always been pretty anti- "posting all your thoughts" on some website. But I really just want to journal my thoughts and feelings about what this new life at college is like for me. Don't ever expect me to get too personal, because I like to remain a bit of a mystery. But as far as the outer image, I am not afraid to show.

Today in chapel I was very attentive, which is not too typical of me. This week at Baylor is missions week. No matter how much I try and fight it, God has had a persistent calling on my life to do mission work. I've been pretty intimidated by such an intense calling on my life, but I suppose if He will bring me to it, he will undoubtedly bring me through it!
Tonight I attended my FCC service meeting. I really think I am going to enjoy serving the youth of Waco... my heart is in it more than it is in a lot of other things. I am worried about school and how tough biology is. I hate to admit it, but my teachers were all right! It is really hard here at Baylor, but I honestly wouldn't trade it for the world. I love it here... I know that God placed me here for a specific purpose.

So now some thoughts on people... I for some reason get a lot of thrill out of breaking someone... taking them out of their usual comfort zones and making them think outside their "box". But, wow it can be a difficult task sometimes. However, I believe they use extreme confidence to cover the lack there of.. These people come off as arrogant to almost everyone, but somehow I think I know the truth... that they are afraid of something greater than themselves. Well I am just rambling now, but I will continue to pursue relationship building with those who believe they can't have intimate relations with anyone. So HA.

Okay well I must return to my studies.... I hope this thing works and people actually read it, or if not, its just here for my own good, which I am okay with.

Have a good night!

"And He said... Ask and I'll give the nations to you. Oh Lord, that's the cry of my heart." ~Pursue the Lord beyond the acceptance of what He has done, but for what He has yet to do.~