Part 3.75

Contentment is not what takes us to the next level. I am craving change; a thrilling intro to the next phase of life. Things are good, I have nothing to complain about. God has blessed me with an abundant life filled with friends, love, laughter.. blah, blah, blah. I desire a stimulating atmosphere that keeps you on the edge of your seat, almost scared to move forward because of the unexpected, unpredictable moment you are approaching. Now, I know that life can't always be this way. But really- I'm just bored.

I look around and am thrilled for summer, sooo anxious for next year, but this moment- ugh, I just can't jump up and down about. I really feel like I am shedding a skin-- and how many times must I do this?! I'm ready for the next page.. to turn over into an adventurous chapter that will lead into a new life journey. What could it be? My last year of college is bound to be an exciting one as I live out the dreamer in me and bring ideas and change to the table- yay? No, I'm just going through motions. I mean, I really love what I do and only do it because I know I should use what God has given me to bring good and to serve Him-- of course out of my love and desire to bring Him glory. But why am I not more excited?

I'm just bored and everything is still. I need air. I need movement. I need to be spontaneous with someone. I want to see passion in others and not feel like mine has to be burning only inside me. i.want.to.let.it.out.

Just come sweep me off my feet already...