Waiting...

So it's been a few days...

Where to begin...

First off... my previous postings about my obsession with babies and not being able to wait for my own.. Scratch that. I can wait!!! I have come to realize I just don't quite know what to do when the baby starts to cry... this could be a problem. I've been spending some time with my 3-month-old cousin and it has been very nice birth control.

Next... grace and mercy. The difference. Grace = being given something you do not deserve. Mercy = not being given something you do deserve. So which of these has been most prevelant in my life??? Well, to give myself a pity party I would tell you it was mercy-- but then I start to think... is mercy really something to get down about? I mean, obviously God has a reason to not give you something.. so in the end could this mercy become grace? I think so... Just something I have been thinking about lately..

Now... my love life. God has been showing me how intimate he desires to be with me. I have been kind of prone to relationships at times, and God is trying to take that away from me for the time being and I think it is a spectacular idea. Yes, there are some exciting boys out there I'd love to get ahold of... but God is showing me that HE is all I need right now. He wants to be the one to comfort me always. He has shown me this lately by giving me a taste of how great of a guy he has for me... and then kind of taking it away leaving me only to turn to Him. But I feel God telling me that if I wait... in time He will bring the perfect man. Gag me, I know. But this is important! I am only 19, but it's not that far away! Okay enough with the love stuff... if my sister reads this she might have to run to the restroom. (Sorry Kait...)

And finally concerns and prayers on my heart. Centrifuge next week! I want to be used... we all need prepared hearts... safety... etc. Work, I need to come up with a whole lot of money in a really short time period!! Lord willing, it will happen!! School.. the time is flying, and its SOON!!
Just a few prayers off the top of my head... be praying, be listening... God has a plan and He wants to show it to you, you just have to be open and listen!!!

God Bless ya'll...
Much love kids.




p.s. Father's Day is Sunday.. and I miss my daddy:(