Could my best friend be any cooler?

Desperately in need of an update. Just got home from camp... then went to the Rascal Flatts concert. I'm dead... or as close as you possibly can be without actually being dead.

Anywho-- You must know that God is moving constantly in the lives of young people. His grace just WOWS me. His mercy an even bigger WOW. He will reveal himself to you if you desire it enough.... More on this later.. you don't want to miss out.

Don't know Jesus? Let's talk.

Be back after sleep!

Praise the Lord even when I'm tired and worn...

dreaming...

Waiting...

So it's been a few days...

Where to begin...

First off... my previous postings about my obsession with babies and not being able to wait for my own.. Scratch that. I can wait!!! I have come to realize I just don't quite know what to do when the baby starts to cry... this could be a problem. I've been spending some time with my 3-month-old cousin and it has been very nice birth control.

Next... grace and mercy. The difference. Grace = being given something you do not deserve. Mercy = not being given something you do deserve. So which of these has been most prevelant in my life??? Well, to give myself a pity party I would tell you it was mercy-- but then I start to think... is mercy really something to get down about? I mean, obviously God has a reason to not give you something.. so in the end could this mercy become grace? I think so... Just something I have been thinking about lately..

Now... my love life. God has been showing me how intimate he desires to be with me. I have been kind of prone to relationships at times, and God is trying to take that away from me for the time being and I think it is a spectacular idea. Yes, there are some exciting boys out there I'd love to get ahold of... but God is showing me that HE is all I need right now. He wants to be the one to comfort me always. He has shown me this lately by giving me a taste of how great of a guy he has for me... and then kind of taking it away leaving me only to turn to Him. But I feel God telling me that if I wait... in time He will bring the perfect man. Gag me, I know. But this is important! I am only 19, but it's not that far away! Okay enough with the love stuff... if my sister reads this she might have to run to the restroom. (Sorry Kait...)

And finally concerns and prayers on my heart. Centrifuge next week! I want to be used... we all need prepared hearts... safety... etc. Work, I need to come up with a whole lot of money in a really short time period!! Lord willing, it will happen!! School.. the time is flying, and its SOON!!
Just a few prayers off the top of my head... be praying, be listening... God has a plan and He wants to show it to you, you just have to be open and listen!!!

God Bless ya'll...
Much love kids.




p.s. Father's Day is Sunday.. and I miss my daddy:(

Growing up really makes you cherish your family tremendously... Tonight I went to the airport to pick up my cousin and his wife... and their new baby!! They flew in from Okinawa, Japan.. I haven't seen him in 4 years! It made me feel so good just spending time with my family:)

My grandpa sat their holding baby Tiffany... and she had been crying all night long, but when she went to him, she stopped. And she was giggling... He was so cute with her. The oldest one in the family, with the youngest... all those years in between. What a blessed life... at any age-- How precious life is.

I have been on such a high for life... it's getting kind of ridiculous, I know. But I have so much time on my hands to relax and think about things... I appreciate things a lot more! I probably make some people want to vomit with all my positiveness I have been having, but whatev... puke away... I'm happy:) Have I mentioned how obsessed with my grandma I am? I think my sister and I laughed for 2 hours as she entertained us tonight.

Okay, well all this positivity is quite exhausting... Tomorrow maybe I'll be negative and complain about something? Nah-- what's there to complain about?? I'll try to find something ... maybe.

peace out.

'Tis gooood...

So I am incandescently happy this evening:) Which means I am glowing, and you can see the happiness flowing from me! Ohhh, I can rub off on you if you'd like!

Why am I so happy? Honestly, I do not know.. but praise the Lord because any ounce of joy I have is only from Him:)

Today the "Send-Me" team left for their retreat... I wish I could be with them this week, but duty calls, and I must work-- Growing up blows, paying bills blows. But I will be in some serious prayer for the 9 kids that are there (2 of which I am proud to say are my little siblings). I know God has a lot to reveal to each of them and He has a perfect plan for each of their lives. I pray that they will be open to the plan that He has, rather than the plan that they have. I believe that they can be incredible leaders for this community and have the hearts to serve and show Jesus to others.

I got to go to the new stadium tonight! Too bad the Cards lost-- but it was still fun! They are still beating the Astros, which is grrreat... especially to rub in my die-hard stros fan friend's face! Which if I do say so, I really miss that kid! Too bad he is Waco and I am in Illinois, ugh-- all my BU friends... I am missing you... sad day for us all.

Well my bed is calling my name... and work is calling my name in the morning...

Sweet dreams my fellow bloggers:)

Oh the lobsters...

Not too much exciting happened today-- It was my first day serving alone and I had to work a split... My feet hurt. BUT... I really do like my job:) Serving is fun, helping people is fun, and old people are fun. Aww, there was this old couple that wanted to take me home with them... how cute!!! I would've went too, except, well, I had another table.

For the evening I just hung out with the coolest little brother in the world-- For real, I absolutely love my family! God has blessed me with 4 amazing siblings who all happen to be my best friends!!

I love life. End of story.

until next time....


p.s. those silly cardinals took my night away last night-- 14 innings and we still lost!! and even worse... TO THE CUBS. Sad day for st. louis. BUT they are in 1st place, and the Astros aren't... Sad day for the stros. OOOOh summertime!!!

It never stops!

I am so excited right now! I just found out that I get to go to Centrifuge (a youth camp for junior high and highschool kids)... Okay for those of you that know me, you know I have been year after year-- 6 times to be exact. So why am I so much more excited this time? Wellll... God has just laid it on my heart that I can serve by being a leader for the youth at my church. It is completely a God thing that I even get to go. So now just pray that the Lord will prepare my heart, and prepare the hearts of the kids I get to serve from my church. This experience will be different than the past 6 because instead of being served, I am going to do the serving. My heart has been so humbled lately and I am super excited to do whatever need be of me! Whether that be carrying luggage, cleaning up messes, and totally having no fun at all-- it will all be done in the name of the Lord and in that I can find all the happiness I need:)

Please be praying for this week- the week of June 19th-ish I believe. One week with a group of kids so hungry for more.. in Tennessee with hundreds of other youth all coming together to focus 100% on God for the entire time. Also, prayers for Chris and Amanda who are both serving by being permanent staff at 2 different Lifeway camps for the entire summer. I just pray that they can be refreshed week after week and that when the kids see them they see Jesus.

Okay-- I am going to go for now... Praise God for one more AMAZING day... for revealing himself to me and allowing me to find so much joy amidst the bad things happening around me.

Have a wonderful night!

Insomnia...

Why don't I sleep??

I figured since I don't sleep I'd blog a little more...

I have been spending so much time alone these past couple weeks, like for real alone-- living alone-- how scary?!! It has been soooo nice though. I have spent some serious time in thought and in prayer for what is to come in my life. I have really discovered that it is in this silence, when I am most still, that I can truly hear the voice of the Lord. I have learned lately that I need to be more of a listener... I have always had the talking part down but it's the listening part I haven't quite mastered. I have also spent a lot of time reading-- I forgot how good it felt to just read out of mere pleasure!

So I am officially baby crazy!! Sunday evening I had the awesome experience of visiting Joe and Kelli and the newest edition to the fam-- Elle! I didn't even hold her (it's a good thing, trust me)... I nearly cried at how beautiful she was-- and how blessed of baby girl she is to be brought into the world by such loving people. Words really cannot describe the feeling I had sitting there watching her. How excited I am to one day be in their shoes! A loooong looong time away, I know, but seriously its #3 on my list.

I started a new job... What a thrill-- I get to serve seafood, my most hated type of food. It's really not that bad at all though-- I enjoy it:) I am just excited to be making money finally! It's good to be busy too...

Wednesday evening at church we had 2 missionaries come and share their hearts and their passion to serve the Lord overseas. Everytime I hear someone talk about it, I get more and more encouraged and more assured that this is where I am supposed to be. I can only hope to one day be in their position... Having stories to share, together, with my spouse. Elizabeth (the wife), really nailed it when she said that when God brings two people together, He is going to use them in great ways... So here I wait-- to be matched with someone so that He can use us together to share His love and enhance the kingdom. Right now I am just loving life-- Trusting, trusting, trusting... Trusting that God is going to provide in all situations. He has such a perfect plan for me and there is so much peace in knowing that I am heading in the path He planned for me to take.

My heart is so overwhelmed with Joy-- with passion. God has been giving me little glimpses daily of what He has in store for me! I am excited to be home, excited to be used, and excited to go back and see what else He is going to do in my life! As for now, I am going to test out the sleep thing once more...

God is Good...

Forever in His grasp,
Felicia

An encouraging scripture that has been guiding me... *Daily you must trust Me, surrendering everything, including the blood in your veins and the breath in your lungs, for Me to do with as I see fit. If you want to join Me, you must let Me lead*~(paraphrased-Luke 9:23)