I used to be such an affectionate person. Somewhere along the way my urge to love just to feel warmth became pale compared to my innate passion to do something big. I kind of became rugged at feeling, well, feelings... It's like the pain of the nations cut so deep that I became numb to the simple things. I built barriers to my own heart-- probably because of personal wounds and let downs. It is important to focus on the big picture, and it is okay to be so desperate to GO--but amidst the journey of getting there I cannot forget about my own affections. I ultimately am talking about my affection for Jesus-- and that my love for Him will cause me to do things I have never done before. Although, I think it is crucial to show affection for my surrounding loved ones-- and those also in love with Jesus. If we have already committed to an unconditional love for Christ--then it is okay to fall in love with each other, because we are falling in love with Jesus in them. I want to hug someone. That's all. A real hug. Not some side hug or pat on the back-- but I want the hug to be a genuine embrace.. the kind where you hold on for those extra few seconds and get lost in the moment. I want to get lost in affection.. caught in love for something bigger than myself.